As I figured, all I really needed to do was clean the toilet and gather up the trash. The apartment is halfway decently clean at the moment. Do wish I could afford better furniture, maybe a nice tv, dvd player, and maybe a table. But oh well thats how it goes it seems. Ill just stick with my “economicly elegant” furniture, as I was told once before. Free couches, free chairs, free rug, free bedroom stuff. Only stuff Ive paid for in this place is the desk and my lamps. I guess thats not a bad thing, but means nothing matches. Decided to finaly put the bikes out in storage. I figure its really too cold to ride too much. I may pull the mountain bike out sometime but that doesn’t justify it sitting here in the living room. I have every gun needing to be cleaned. My shoulder is sore. So thats how recoil threapy usualy ends. Now on to this coming week…

Wow Im tired. Did not get enough sleep last night. Didnt get in bed early enough, took a while to fall asleep, then up early. As soon as I woke up had to shower and get dressed. Almost immediatly headed out for the gun range. So there spent like 4 hours on my feet shooting up lots of ammo. Was a fun afternoon thats for sure. Im super tired tho and have so much I should get done. I stayed up long enough to get to talk to a good friend, then … now … Im going to go to sleep I do believe. Sucky, 10pm on a Saturday night and the only thing on my mind is sleep. Part of me says go out do something, even if its just ride around. Another says…dumbass you will fall asleep at the wheel go to bed. Wonder which one will prevail?

Well Im not heading home…obviously. I couldn’t really justify the drive for what all was at offer up there. I do like and want to see dad, but last he said there was a chance he wouldn’t even be there. So if he wasn’t there, thats one reason not to be there. We weren’t going to stepmom’s family like we normaly do. I understand fully why not tho. So there is no big meal going on up there. Then I can’t get ahold of the one person I really wanted to see if I go up there. Cell phone issues and I dont have the new number I guess, if any number at all. It came down to only 2 days worth of things to do, and a 5 day period to do them in. Not good ratios if you ask me.

Tomorrow Ill go up to Rod’s in-law’s and have a meal with them. Ill make my great-aunts deviled eggs, best eggs ever if you ask me . Then Friday ride with him to Alabama to pick up some gifts he got for his kids. Probably help reload some ammo that night. Then go shooting Saturday morning. That sounds worth sticking around for. Just a full weekend planned instead of probably a lot of idle time. Oh well…hopefully dad will not give me a hard time

Well I still cant make up my mind. As I sat here about 2 hours ago I was going home for the weekend. No real reason why other than see dad and go to a concert. Thats 2 events for 5 days. Then put on that dad says he might be leaving on a road trip of some sort…Ill end up doing nothing. I cant get ahold of my friend, she lost her cell phone. So cant even line up that. So its like….long drive for no real plans right now. I can stay here, go up to Rod’s for Thanksgiving then Friday ride down to Alabama with him to pick up some stuff. That way Id have atleast something do. Im sure Saturday I can find something to do. Oh the decsions. I wish I could get ahold of my friend up in Elizabethton, but Im doubting it. I need to decide by…oh…5 mins from now. I need to pack if I am going. id like to leave out asap tomorrow if I am going up there. Just been so long since Ive been in East TN that I dont really have anything to do and anyone to do stuff with…….decsisons.

Wow there are some quality podcasts out there. Im a total fan now. Its like all I listen to either here or on the road…heck even in the office. But one thing that really sealed it for me was Saturday. Adam Curry from MTV fame has a decent podcast called the Daily Source Code. Its mostly just a podcast about podcasting. He had some new ads play on there and asked for feedback. I figured why not. I threw an email out there…and got a reply from him. I was amazed an email from a host of a show that seems to care about his listeners. That right there is what makes most of these small indy podcasts far superior to the radio. Its that direct connection from the listeners to the people who make it happen. Yea he probably has now about 250,000 listeners, but takes the time to reply to the fans. Not even a canned response but one that was atleast thought though.

So ones I really recomend to geeks out there, Google these for the exact feeds. Daily Source Code, This Week in Tech, Digital Life TV, Engadget, CommandN, Geek News Central, Formula Pod, Diggnation, Infected, The Dawn and Drew Show, The Chris Pirillo Show, TartenPodcast. Its really something you sorta need to get heavily into. You have to have space and speed to really download a lot and hold them all….so if you can I recomend it.

Oh lordy what a way to wake up on a Sunday morning. I get up and get here on the pc…go to try to find some pics Ive got saved on my server. Only to find a bunch of the hard drive is GONE. Well…it wasnt pretty. I started some fsck’s and such only to get no where. Booted off a cd and repaired them that way. They showed good that way. I rebooted and Debian kernel panic’d! Ok screw it, reinstall the OS. It is working now, about 2 hours later. Its all there as I figured but man what panic that was. Think the controller is dieing, I should have replaced the mobo but maybe soon. I dont want to use the other board I have here cause its slated for another project. The old server is a p2 266 so would hate to go all the way back to that. Its all fine now but man that sucks. Linux at times has its benifits. I can have the OS reinstalled in a matter of 15 mins or so.

Beck – Hell Yes Wow all I gota say is that is really cool. Ok maybe not the best thing for people to click if they arent on broadband, but dang thats very cool. Sony robots dancing to Beck’s new song for the video.

Well was a typcial day around here, doing nothing. Watching Stargate has been about all Ive got done today. Not to mention going though my podcasts and finding new ones. There is a really cool audio book that was the first podcast book out there and its worth the download as far as it goes so far. Just say…me and rss feeds…have become good friends. I dont read anything on the home sites anymore it seems. Just reading the feeds in my feed reader, and listening to podcasts left and right. Thinking of starting one for a site I help run. Will be a geeky thing but might be fun. Newman has asked me about it before, and Im going to try to get with him on it. The Kevin and Kevin geek half hour or something….ya never know

Or lack of. Have no clue what plans are for Thanksgiving yet. Have a few people Id like to go see over the long weekend. Getting in contact with people can be hard these days it seems. Need to find out what Dad’s plans are before too long cause I guess that will make a difference. If nothing else, Ill probably end up at Rod’s. Then again I think I remember Josh saying Robinella will be in concert back home, Id love to see her again. That might sway some of my plans. This weekend…nothing has come up yet. May be a lazy weekend, which can be welcome at times.

I need to find a way to store the bikes better. Right now they are just sitting here in the living room taking up space. Maybe some hooks of some sort for either in there or out in the storage closet. I need to start Christmas shopping but am not getting any bright ideas of what people want yet. Usualy I have a good idea, but seems as of late, the creative juices arent flowing. Oh well it will come soon enough….once I figure out who exactly I will be buying for atleast…

I didnt think I was, but I think I am. Ive just been trying to take notice of things Ive been doing lately to figure out what all I need to change. Its coming up on the 2 year aniversery of me starting my weight loss regime. In that time Ive now lost 180lbs, but that was almost all done in the first year. These last few months(8 or so) Ive not moved hardly at all. Ive added in more exercise for as much as I can. Ive started running at the gym, usualy get 2miles in every night for 4-5 nights a week. Before that I was bikeing either 10-15 miles on the roadbike, or hour-two hours of mountain bikeing. So it really wasnt the being active part I didnt think. So something else was the factor.

Watching some of the “X was so fat” type of shows on all the discovery shows got me thinking and watching. I seem to eat complusively. I didnt think Ive ever done this. But like if Im sitting here not doing anything its like…oh im hungery go get something to eat. I knew before that my portion control was crazy as well. Doing Atkins(low carb) has been easy and I was looseing tons of weight eating enough to keep me full. But now Im a lot smaller, well almost 200lbs smaller, and you just cant eat like that anymore. Ive tried eating less and i do work well on it. But seems I loose will power or something and grab a snack, a big one.

Ill know Im doing it and not do anything about it. Just dont know how to control it thats for sure. I keep good snacks to eat and that just doesnt really work. So who knows….

what am i saying here…hell if i know. Just a warning to some of you maybe. Sit back and think of what you are doing and what you could do better. Yea Ive achieved something halfway big at loseing 180lbs so far….i feel like ive not done crap. every now and then i start thinking…maybe the gastric bypass would have been a better solution for me.